Im fighting the meds Its what i wanted but not this fast i hear my heartbeat faster than it should be my eyelids droop to blacken my vision better to see nothing than to see you all the time in my mind, you kiss me on your own no hesitation, no regret no obligations, no commitments everyday to maybe is hard to accept if youre not gonna be here, i want to be where you go ill be strong and funny do what i can make everyone happy thats what youd want But for now ill down this liquid pill and dream dreams of drowing in what used to be engulfed by the past that i didnt embrace too late is too hard to grasp that appreciation wasnt mine to have my body freezes and aches along with my heart which causes which im not sure on that part im gonna sleep this off days at a time im gonna dream this off with you in my mind